doI?

Do I really want to put sooooo much effort in a JOB? IF I WAS single I would make a career out of Walmart but having a family is my importantn goal in life. Yes making $$$ is apart of maintaining a life But I am more interested in the well being of my daughter and future children. They are the ones that matter the most to me. Its god family job and money. Those are my priorities and I intend to keep it that way..

Toughts of the night

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zumbaDAMN!

Whew today I had a hard workout with my zumba video at home. It was amazing and hard work. I am so determined to get my body in shape for my next child. I need to get past these mental blocks saying "YOU CAN'T DO THIS JANELLE ITS TOO HARD" its a voice I've had in my head for far too long. Its time to get over that hurdle and jus DO IT!!!!

I know I can I just need to keep myself motivated :) with help and support from friends and family I know its possible.

Back to work....

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goodNIGHT

My hubby kairi n I had a great dinner with some awesome friends :) dinner at ken wah chop suey should've took some pics....anywho I love socializing with friends it takes my mind off of other things helps me get through the week.

I would like to be more of an encouraging friend rather than grumbling about stuff all the time positivity is easier to hang around.

I wanna be the way I used to be bubbly and positive :)

That's all for now.
Good night

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onBREAK

Today is a slow day plenty people at work and hoping I can leave work early. I got almost 2 hours of vacation left. I am hoping that I can leave. Anywho, I am determined to go meetings regularly. Its about time I go and be regular its only 4 hours a week at most. I can do that. I know in my wart that is what I want.

I am so determined I need to keep a strict schedule. Of walking jogging studying and going work. I want to be proud of myself for returning to Jehovah. I know MANY people have different stipulations about witnesses but no ones unless they understand. So how can you understand when you aren't open to learning. It kills me that I hurt my family The way I did. But that was in the past. I have changed with the help of my hubby altough he doesn't agree with some teachings he supports me bcuz of how u feel. I love him for that. He is amazing and I wouldn't feel this way if it weren't for him.

He says it hurts him to see me sad. And e wants me to do it for me and only me. I am confident I will make my way back before the end of this year. I love darren and kairi and want nothing nut good things for my little family.

Breaks almost over

Gtg ttyl <3 ME

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determinedTODAY

I would love to volunteer and help out somewhere. However having kairi im unable to help any organized volunteer work. So I think im going to use my thursdays to clean up beaches. Ill probly go down and clean makapuu beach. I want to give back to the community and give my time to a good cause.

Watching this SECRET BILLIONARE SHOW is making me think how do I spend my time???

I dont want to waste it if I can do something to help those less fortunate or even keeping our hawaii beaches clean

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iWOULD <3 TO

HAVE A ROMANTIC LIMOUSINE RIDE

RIDE IN A HOT AIR BALLOON

GO HORSEBACK RIDING

RUN ONE MILE IN TEN MINUTES

TAKE A FIRST CLASS TRIP WITH MY FAMILY

SING TO MY HUBBY WITH CONFIDENCE

DANCE HULA AGAIN

TRAVEL TO ANOTHER COUNTRY

REACH MY HEALTHY WEIGHT GOAL

losing weight has always been on my list of things to do since I can remember. I really need to buckle down and get with it.

Its not for anyone but myself ;)
Well maybe its for my special someone too Hehe

Hope everyone has a great night and weekend. Stay happy love life and be safe :)

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tiredNEED TO GO HOME!!!!

Today was a long day back at work. 2-11 shift. And somehow I need to make it to the party with kaleo them....I don't think I can go, cuz I really need to stay at work the whole 2 weeks to make rent.

What's more important a party or making ends meet. I don't want to be slacking and I don't mind missing it. I feel bad but what am I to do? I can call tomorrow at 7 and see if I can work earlier....but we see.

If no can no can
Plus if I don't go more money we save. Gah.....I just feel bad I made plans and I can't make it. Wish I could. I mean I can go during my lunch but im gonna get in trouble

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tooMUCH.....

So today i have officially closed my facebook account 

hearing of the statistics about how it ruins relationships just made me want to get rid of it

HOWEVER!!!!

I have made a facebook just for my little baby to keep people updated about her. if anyone wants to know whats up with me you are welcome to follow my blog or just call txt or email me!!! haha i know its not the way people are doing it these days haha but i have a phone for a reason! and i dont wanna be spending $80 a month just so i can go on facebook! you catch my drift? so if you wanna get to know me ask me on blogger, write me, call me, or text me! :) 

I am more satisfied with writing about my day then posting general comments that people always tend to take offense to.

Today has been a relax get better day for me, just not feeling well and I would like to get better hopefully by tomorrow so that i may do a better job at work. Speaking of work I know it is a job and something i need to survive, but I DO NOT LOVE my job, I work for a living, and I believe I will never say I will live to work in this "world". This is a horrible place compared to what it was like back when i was younger. Every generation has its ups and downs but I have never seen and heard children talk back and disrespect the very people that gave them life. I get so heated when i hear little ones especially teens acting up to their parents, makes me wonder if i will be able to handle that when my daughter gets older.

Speaking of my little bundle of JOY! She is napping right now and I love that I get to spend time blogging right now, it helps me clear my mind and not be so anxious over things that ultimately do not matter. I love my husband and my daughter, I notice that sometimes when things get rough I want to close up and run away. 

That is exactly what I have been doing since I left Maui, I need to stop running and deal with what crosses my path. 

(right at this very moment we have people smoking pot, marijuana, mary jane, roofies, weed, ganja behind our apartment.....) I hate when they do that, i know we are on the second floor but the wind does carry that smell up...ugh....anywho my goal for the next 3 months is to commit to Slim in 6

SLIM IN 6 

This program has helped me slim down after graduation, I was at my heaviest in high school and was embarassed about it, then when i started working at the airport throwing bags the weight just fell right off, I loved that. Hopefully now I can commit like I did before and complete my goal. I would be happy if i could get my weight down to 200lbs or even 180lbs is my ultimate goal. i DO NOT want to be stick skinny i would love to run a mile in 10minutes, or do a 5K run  under an hour. 

These are just some of the things I would love to accomplish before I turn 40. Im 23 right now so i think running that mile under 10min is a doable goal by the end of this year. I just need to keep my focus and do all that i can

Thats all on my mind for now, write you tomorrow! or when the urge strikes :)

needsSLEEP!!!

Im getting delusional at work im so freakin tired....maybe going to eat lunch out was a bad idea....haha thank you to my hubby for letting me go.

I reeeeeeally want to buy that movie burlesque. Im hoping my honey will let me buy it. That and bambi :)

Time to go back to work, hoping and praying for a BLACKOUT HERE AT WALMART KEEAUMOKU!!!!

COME ON MAN!

TALOFA

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wouldYOU???

WOULD YOU

take back the love of your life if they cheated?

For me NO I love my husband with all my heart but if that trust was betrayed he would lose my Love. I would forgive him, but that would be it.

Rather be buried or cremated?

Id rather be cremated and buried with my husband.

Pretty distracted right now watching FRIENDS :)

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offTODAY!!!

Ahhhhh the work week isn't so bad when I have my day off :) im at home relaxing with my baby girl and hubby is playing DC UNIVERSE Ps3.

SUCKER PUNCH looks pretty awesome!

So last night come to find out I swear while im alseep. Hubby told me I said "SHUT THE F*CK UP!!!!" YIKES I didn't even realize I said that.
Im watching disaster date haha.

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goodNEWS!!!

Got my eval today and I am a SOLID PERFORMER!!!! WHOOO-HOOO!

PLUS I GOT A RAISE. So blessed!!!

My monkey is in my shoe!

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randomTHOUGHTS II

Who decided february would have 28 days?

For people who enjoy zombie/alien/psycho killer movies, would you really enjoy it if it was your reality?

Why do babies flap their arms? My baby girl does it like she's trying to fly away to NEVERLAND! LOL

The only lady gaga song I can consistently listen to and not get sick of is JUS DANCE I jus love that song

Why do you shiver after u pee???

When just fart in public what do u do? I just slyly walk away and then run away laughing haha

SoMething I thought id nevEr listen to and like: HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS. °_°

To be continued.....

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randomTHOUGHTS

HUBBY is vacumming, he's sick right now...but he still wants me to rest and feed KAIRI before i leave for work at 1pm. I honestly dont mind working night time its busy, keeps me on my toes.

i hear vaccuming? outside, or they could be yard cleaning. i heard a BEEP which means my hubby is gonna be playing some PS3 haha. gAVE kairi medicine, she keeps looking at the laptop haha, shes listening to the sounds coming from outside the lawn mower. Im just explaining to her what a lawn mower is, its to cut grasss and make it look pretty

recently ive been doing a 7 day picture challenge with a good friend of mine SERENA! and today is Day 4: Post a RANDOM picture/(s) so i will keep with the random theme and Im going to post RANDOM pictures on my blog!

btw HERE are a few things i love

DARK CHOCOLATE
MUD PIE
FOOD NETWORK
DISNEY CHANNEL
OXYGEN
ZUMBA PS3
WALKING
TENNIS
PLAYING GUITAR
SINGING I ENJOY IT DONT MEAN IM ANY GOOD HAHA
WRITING
COOKING BAKING
STAR GAZING
YELLOW
EUROPE
MYSTERY
HUMOR
MAKE UP, LOVE PLAYING WITH MY MAKE UP
BEACH, SURFING, BODY BOARDING
TRAVELLING
CLEVELAND BROWNS
THE CRUNCHY PARTS OF FRENCH FRIES
COCA COLA
SPRITE
DR. PEPPER
ALWAYS THE END PIECE OF PRIME RIB ALL THAT JUICY CRUSTY GOODNESS YUM!
MOVIES/VIDEOS THAT MAKE ME CRY
ACCENTS
MOHAWKS
SHOPPING AT ROSS'
CHUNKY RINGS

THATS all i can think of at the moment so until next time

ADIOS! (you guessed it part SPANISH)